I WANNA KNOW HOW YOU FEEL .
it`s been awhile since i last blog le . maybe i`m just tried ba .alot of things happen luhs .to think about the things i done , shuo zhen de wo bu zhi dao what i`m really up to .i was involved in PADDLES @ MARINA`07 .throught out the whole training process and the performance ,i really enjoy alot .this week was aready the 2 last week of being in e149 .not long we`re mulipiting soon .sad luhs .don`t really know what to blog when i have an empty heart now .
after seeing his msn pm .
i felt alot .
it`s seem to refering to me .
i don`t know , maybe his not .
knowing him is not a hard thing to do .
the problems lies on whether he wants to share .
i should understand what he is going through ,
but somehow i don`t know how .
i wanted to meet him at times .
in the end , things bound to pop out and make it impossible .
i want to tell him manys manys thing .
to think about it , do we have time for each other ?
i wanna know him more , let him share his sorrow and joy with me .
and how ?
no ones know i think .
am i just trying to find excuses for myself not to meet you ?
is that what you think too ?
i know you`re tired ; i trying to do something about it ler .
time is what i need , really .
hmm , totally don`t agree that you said you`re the one hurting me .
words you speaks did hurt me before , but only twice .
after all i the one who cause this to happen .
why did you tear that day ?
i should have praise you instead of doing the opp that day in msn .
hurting you = hurting myself .
guess this is the reason why i`m sad ba .
so don`t blame yourself anymore .
girls are always emotional .
esp me .
when i talk to him fear began to reach out for me .
when i wanted to meet him devil comes in and place excuses in me .
when i tried to love him ,my heart will be empty .
when i think of him , i`ll think of things you done that hurt me .
when i walk out of lonliness to find you , i tends to believe you`re very busy .
hey , i just wants to protect him against the thinking that devil gave , cast out the fear within me , fill my heart with his love for me to love him ,delect aways the bad you have done ,and to finds you at the correct time .there`s alt more i wanna say ,yet it seem that the time don`t allow so .
i shall end everything here . Last thing ;
iloveyouboy. but do you ?
